Preparing for change
Today marks 1 month before our departure. We’ve been staked down in southern Idaho since the end of October, and pretty soon we will set off into the horizon once again. This time however, we’ll be a tiny convoy taking our motorhome on the road for the first time!
So these weeks are all in the theme of preparation. One of the things I’ve learned recently is that I really do work better when I have a deadline. So I give myself fake deadlines and make sure that they really matter. Feeling the impending doom as the end approaches and I still have successfully procrastinated ;) Noticing I suddenly get way more done in a day than usually.
These days I find myself juggling homemaking and webdesigning with re-organizing our home to go from - stationary live-in to travel-mode.
Somehow wanting to do it all at the same time, and being quite scatter brained. To do lists are my best friends these days, without I will forget everything.
One of the things catagorizing this past season is the immense sense of peace I feel inside. Considering some of our external circumstances, this makes no sense. But it is unwavering. A peace so incredibly strong and grounding. Unshakeable. And truly the only one I can thank for that internal stability is Jesus.
I’ve spent years searching for this in the new age, in personal development, in continuous “diving deeper”. Only to come out more miserable than I was before. At my core, never quite peaceful. And when I was, very temporary.
It’s quite silly. I feel myself wanting to write so much about this topic. Wanting to speak of my transition from the new age. Wanting to speak of God entering our home. A fair amount of posts, sleeping in my draft-folder. Because for some reason I feel ashamed(?) to speak of this topic. Afraid to delve deeper into the reality of my changing heart.
I suppose it is time to start writing of that sooner rather than later. I will get convicted either way.
“You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden. Nor do people light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on a stand, and it gives light to all in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before others, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father who is in Heaven.” - Matthew 5:13-16